I hurt a friend once, I did somethings I ended up regretting. Trust was broken, words were said, hurt spread like a cancer n before I realised, we were worlds apart. I acknowledged that I was at fault, and I apologised and asked to be forgiven.
Days passed until eventually she said “I forgive You”. They say it’s never too late to be forgiven but as at then I just didn’t care anymore. I could care less if she had forgiven me or not. It just didn’t matter to me anymore.
The funny thing was that when she said it, I felt at ease, I had told myself I didn’t care anymore, but then I felt freedom, true freedom. At least I thought so. Weeks passed and though she’d forgiven me, we hadn’t spoken since then, not even once.
I ran into her some days later (weeks really), we got to talking and she said she missed our awkward conversations and I said I missed our friendship and she laughed and asked “Did we ever stop being friends?” A question that rang in my head for the couple of minutes we were together.
In reality, she had forgiven me and let go, while I claim to have forgiven her but yet I held on to the hurt. I had let the hurt get in the way of our friendship and even though she knew we were still, I felt other wise. I realized that in actuality, i had not truly forgiven.
“It’s easy to say “I forgive You”, but true forgiveness lies in forgetting all the hurt you once felt”- Ochuko A. Akpomudjere
In reality, true forgiveness is not easy anyone who tells you that is lying. You can’t truly forgive without the help of God. I learnt this the hard way. Later on as I was pondering I heard vividly:
I am not asking you to just forgive, I’m asking you to let me in so I can help you forget
Unforgiveness is a cancer that just keeps spreading, till lives and beautiful relationships and beautiful relationships are ruined. However I have also realized that true forgiveness cannot be achieved through your efforts alone but also by the help of the Spirit.
Ochuko A. Akpomudjere
*So about my recent absence from blogosphere, I’m really sorry, life happened and I had to respond appropriately. Anyway I’m back, Thank God.*